Thursday, September 22, 2011

Why I Haven't Blogged.

Because L-I-F-E has gotten crazy. New full time job (which I do appreciate in this economy), 90 minute commute each way. But still...the last few months has been a whirlwind. And I don't even have kids!

Because I am having a hard time with my D management. I struggle with unexplained highs. I sit for 10-11 hours straight, and I worry what it's doing to my circulation. I slack off on wearing Dex, I am too exhausted to even exercise. The only bright spot is having access to healthy food every day at the cafeteria. I have an appointment with a brand new endo in a month, someone I've never met, because my old doctor is in Chicago. And I'm already nervous. I feel like my teenage self, scared of my mean old pediatric endo who used to yell at me for anything over 250 mg/dL.

Because there are so many other new and old DOC bloggers who speak far more eloquently than I do.

Because, admittedly, I just don't want to rehash my life these days. I'm in a rut.

Because there are times I still feel alone, no matter how many DOC connections I see. I still live my day-to-day life without ever seeing another t1PWD.

Because.

As my husband says, "Excuses are the currency of failure." So I guess I will come back when I'm done with excuses.